Early bird vs second mouse. which one is better?

The early bird might get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

Sometimes, we need to know how to adjust our plan with the opportunity ahead of us. If not, you’ll get nothing and your effort become useless.

Obscure Future

Some people might afraid of what the future may hold.

There is nothing on this earth that can know all possible futures.

The future is as yet unshaped.

It is we that shape it.

It’s you- the decisions you make, the actions you take may shape your future.

Nothing is to be afraid of.

You are the engineer and architect of your own future.

Just do your best and enjoy it as much as you can.

Never ever regret on what had already happen.

HE knows what is best for you.

losing my sanity~

Out of my mind.

I will be right back when
feels sane.

Kekeke o_O”

knowledge vs wisdom

Knowledge:

- Tomato is a fruit.

Wisdom:

- Not putting it in a fruit salad.

Idiot and his world.Stupidity fills the air...

Do not argue with an idiot.

He will drag you down to his level and beat you with experience.

Bus Driver a.k.a Fallen Angel

The world is going to hell,

And I’m driving the bus.

Welcome to reality...

me and only me...

Sometimes I pretend to be normal. But it gets boring.

So, I go back to being me.

^____^V

The last thing in my list...

The last thing I want to do is hurt you.

But it's still on the list.

Bare it on your mind...

fact vs reality II

Fact:-

Light travels faster than sound.

Reality:-

This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

kekeke ^___^V

you and your opinion...

People have their opinions.

They like to shake their head and judge me.

They like to talk and whisper and wonder.

It used to bother me and then eventually

I learned not to care because this is my life

And the only person whose happiness matters 

is my own.

I won’t give a damn to others.

They didn’t worth my attention.

fact vs reality

Fact: -

One out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced.

Reality: -

Think of your 3 closest friends...

If they seem okay, then you’re the one.

Kekeke  o_O

hard boiled

A lesson without pain is meaningless.

That’s because you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return.

But once you’ve withstood the pain and overcome it,

You will gain a heart that is stronger than everything else.

At that time, you’ll receive everything that happened in your life with an open arm.

Nothing can make you fall because you are more matured and wiser.

dear...

You are a ray of sunshine in a world that’s sometimes grey.

The magic of your company will brighten up the day.

You’ve guided me through bad times, wiped away my tears, and brought me so much joy as we travel through the years.

It warms my heart to know you choose me as your friend.

You are such a loyal, loving person, on whom I can depend.

If I could have one wish, I’d make it just for you.

I’d ask God for His blessing in everything you do.

You’re such a dearest friend whom I love.

like or dislike???

Don’t always be so quick to fall for someone who pays attention to you.

If I pay my attention to you, there might be only two consequences;
    1.    I like you
    2.    I don’t like you but I've no other choice

Just bare it on your mind.

Not all will likes you.

Even a public figure will have such a tough time because of the haters.

my life without a soul= eery

Go ahead and scream.

No one can hear you.

You’re no longer in the safe world you know.

You have taken a terrifying step into the darkest corners of your imagination.

You have opened the door that leads to my life...

Don't make the person that love you cry...

Like a crimson rose, you stabbed me with thorn words.

Like a tattoo, the more I try to erase it, the more it carves in.

As if I’m addicted, I keep longing for you.

As if you’re a prison, you jailed me inside of you.

Only one thing I asked from you, don’t make the person that love you cry.

tears~

Tears are the secretions of the glands that clean and lubricate the eyes. You may only think of tears as those salty drops that fall from your eyes when you cry. Actually, your tears clean your eyes every time you blink. Tears also keep your eyes moist, which is important for your vision. We cry for many reason-happy, sad, grief, sorrow etc. But most of the time, we’ll cry if we get hurt, sad, sorrow and grief. Sometimes, people might say tears are the silent language of grief. We don’t say a word about the things that we grief for but we say it through the tears as it is a words that heart can’t express. Sometimes tears become the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it. In the end, normal people will cry over the things happened to them no matter how big or small the matter is. There are people who love walking in the rain cause then no one knows they are crying. When we cried over the sad and hurt things regardless no matter what the reason is, it’ll surely left a stain. When the tears fall they’re so easy to wipe off, but how do we erase the stain from our heart? We need to look onto things positively. Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see LIFE with a clearer view again.

while me...

Others live their life to the fullest.

While me, live my life to the HELLest...

Damn...

I wish to be like others who take everything for granted.

They’re having an easy life.

While me, take everything into my own encumbrances.

Need to think twice before doing something bad- skipping classes and tutorials.

Always condemn by the authority.

My rights had been denied.

Ohhhhh...

That’s why life is not a bed full of roses but a pile of poop...

o_O”

genius+work hard+perseverance

“A genius won’t beat one who works hard.

One who works hard won’t beat the one who perseverance.”

Think about the statement above and ask yourselves which one are you. Were you the one who’s genius or the one who works hard or the one who perseverance? Or you have all three combinations? Or only have two combinations? Genius only without any work hard and perseverance you’ll still be called idiot. It’s a different situation for a person who is not genius (in other word stupid, idiot, air head etc...) but he work hard and perseverance in what he’s doing into, he’ll be called a genius. So, don’t be too snobbish if you think you’re genius. Don’t underestimate others. You have no rights to do so because others might not think the same as you. They might think that you’re the dumbest person that they’ve ever met in this planet.

10 Days...

Day 1

Hearing the news, I hurriedly packed my things. I just bring my laptop with me. I can’t think straight even though I still manage to give a smile to my roommate. After settled up the things that I must do, straight away went back. That time, I confused whether I should go home first or straight away went to him. I prayed for his safety. He’s the man that I love the most in my life. Once I arrived at the terminal, I can’t get any bus to go to him. At that time, I just think of him. Oh, God...please help me. In the end my uncle sent me there. I still don’t get any call about him. I felt the car moved too slowly. If I can run, I’ll run instead. I want to be by his side. I want him to see me.

I felt scared when I reached that place. The place where he’s being healed. I can’t see any door to him- ghastly situation for me. I saw my brother waiting patiently for me. He gives me a smile and a gentle hug saying everything gonna be fine. I pushed him hard. I warned him not to hug me. I tried to keep holding on. The hug will weaken me. I saw the door. The door that’ll leads me to him. I just looked at it blankly. We’ve been separated only by a door.  I wanna see him but at the same time I afraid what’s waiting for me there. I saw her looking at me with teary eyes. I saw them too. Looking at me the same way of her.  I looked away. Afraid to collapse in front of them. With a shaking hands, I pushed the door. It’s like a different world to me. Everything is white. There are people in there. But none of them are paying their attention to me. I walked slowly until I reached a place. He’s in there. I saw him lying peacefully. He looks like sleeping- a deep sleep. He looks pale. There’s a lot of tube, needles and wires on him. It hurts seeing him like that. Once he’s the strongest and though man I ever knew. But now, he lies unconsciously. He doesn’t even open his eyes to look at me. I failed to hold the tears- I cried. I wished it just a dream- a nightmare. Suddenly there’s a hand tap me from behind. I startled, I look at him again then I realise that it’s not a dream. I tried to find the hands who tap me. The stranger looks at me for a while before giving me a warm smile. I hate the way he looks at me. His eyes full with sympathy. I got angry. Damn. I don’t need the sympathy. I just need him in my life. I want him back.  The stranger looks like saying something. Trying to find the best word. I looked away and ignored him. Once again, I was in my own world. The tears won’t go away. They keep fall down my cheeks like to accompany me in my silence world. The stranger tapped me again. I refused to look at him and asked him to leave me alone. I heard him saying, he wait for me till I calm down. I felt weak. I felt empty. I felt like the God and the worlds are mean to me. Like been splashed with a cold water, I remember I shouldn’t blame anyone. This is a test for me. I walked towards the door. I leave without looked back. I met the strangers outside. He smiled. I walked passed him. He stopped me. He said something. I can’t understand what he’s saying. I just looked at him blankly. He leaves. I’m alone. I isolated myself. The strangers came approached me once again. He gave me a drink. He told me to drink. Then, he tried to speak once again. Now, I started to understand him. I cried during the conversation. There’s not much I can say.

“He’s having a heart attack. His condition is worse. We can’t even dare to say the percentage for him to survive. There’s a blockage in his heart. He’s critical but stable. What we can do now just wait and see. Pray a lot.”

Day 2

His condition stills the same. There’s no progress. I cried whenever I saw him. I can’t talk. I’m afraid to ask about him. Another stranger came and approached me. This time it’s a woman. I ignored her. My view became blurry because of the tears. The stranger gave me a tissue with a smile on her face. I don’t have any strength to smile back. I just looked away. I stare at him. I wanna see him as much as I can. The stranger interrupted me. I get mad. She startled. I realise I scared and offended her but I can’t say sorry. I can’t open my mouth. Every time I tried, I burst into tears. The stranger just stands still watching me. Then she said something. I gave my attention to her.

“You know about his condition right? I believe my friend had told you. He’s having a heart attack at both above and bottom of his heart. This also affected his kidney. He even had a bleeding in his stomach. Right now, he’s having a fever. He got infections in his lungs. That’s all we can say.”

I cried. Again the tears had become my bestfriend. I’ve become a faithful watchman. Waiting for him to open his eyes. I miss him so much. There’s a lot of question in my mind- what if I lost him? What I gonna do? What will happen to me? Am I ready to lose him at this age? The answers for those entire questions are negative. I’m not ready in losing him. I still need him in my life.

Day 3

I went through the door once again to see him. Without failed, I cried again. The woman sat next to his bed asked me to speak and talk to him. He can hear. But he can’t give any answer. He’s still sleeping. I tried but I failed as I burst into tears. She leaves her seat. I tried once again.

“I’ve come to see you. I’m always here by your side but you can’t see me. I just wanna tell you I love you. I’m waiting for you. So, don’t let me down. There’s so much thing I wanna do together with you. You can’t leave me like this.”

There came another stranger- a man. He looks at me and smile. I don’t pay any attention to him. I was occupied looking at the machine. Checking his heart rate, blood pressure and his face. The stranger tried to start a conversation. I ignored him. He’s so persistent. I looked at him. He gave me a smile. I wipe away the tears but the tears also so persistent. It never dry and won’t leave me.

“I believe you already know why he’s here. I just wanna tell you his condition. There’s no positive progress on him. His condition stills the same. Eventhough he’s look okay and stable, his condition can be worsening anytime. He’s dying.”

I cried...

Day 4

I walk through the door with a smile. I kiss him the way I used to. I talk to him word by word. I’m afraid I’ll cry again. I don’t want him to see me cry. I tried to be cheerful like always. These past 3 days, I’ve lost my smile. I don’t know how to laugh. There comes another stranger. Like usual, I ignored her. She just smile watching me treated him with care and love. Like others she tried to open conversation with me. I looked at her face. She gave me a comfort and warm smile.

“Don’t cry. Insyaallah he’ll be fine. You can call him. He’s awake. His progress and condition impressed us. If he can breathe by his own, we’ll remove the tube this afternoon.”

With a big smile, I cried. Then, I found back my smile. I can laugh like I used before. Thanks to HIM.

Day 5-10

He’s fine even though not totally fine. He can walk slowly, talk and eat. I’m happy seeing his progress. He wants to go home. He said he miss my little brother. He insisted to go home. He won’t listen to me anymore. He even sulks, refused to eat in order to go home. Taking care a sick person need a lot of patience. He’ll act like a child. No one can persuade him anymore. He get what he wants. We’re home!

10 days at hospital, I learn a lot of things. I’ve seen 5 deaths. There’s a lot of story to be share with. A happy one, sad one, pity one, angry one so on and so forth. I met a various kind of human- a kind one, mean one, disgraceful one... it teach me to love both of my parent. If you lose your boy/girlfriend, husband or wife, you can get a new one- it can be a better person or worse. But once you lose your dad or mom, no one can replace them. It won’t be the same. Their place is irreplaceable. My family was like a base of the building and the building is me. Once the base is gone, the building will surely collapse. So do me. Love your parent as long as they still alive. You wouldn’t know when they will leave your side. Take care of them the same way they take care of you.

“MATI ITU PASTI, HIDUP...INSYAALLAH”

doesn't mean...

Receiving love doesn't mean you have it

Covering time doesn't mean it passes

Breathing doesn't mean you live...

ohhhh~

"Law is neither wrong nor right,

Law only crimes,

Punished by places and by times,

Law is the clothes men wear,

Anytime, anywhere,

Law is good morning and good night."

Ohhh... Juris...

You’re such a fabulous and fantastic subject...

BUT

Please be nice and gentle to me.

I’m begging you. 

If not, kill me instead...

Get it over with...

broken hearted

I’m drowning myself in the memories of love...

My heart is breaking with the thought of our lost love...

think twice b4 talking bout me...

What did you say about me?

I know you are talking behind my back.

Don’t you think that I don’t know?

Come on people...

This is ME.

Of course I do know.

If you dare, just blurt it out in front of me.

Prove me wrong that you are not a chicken.

You said that I’m fat?

Hello...I’m not fat okay.

I’m just a little cute chubby.

Even if I’m fat, it doesn’t concern you at all.

I buy food using my own money.

I’m not begging for your money.

I’m fat so do my brain.

Your brain is thin exactly like your body.

May I ask you a question?

Are you having a disease or something?

A jealousy-type disease maybe.

Please get a life okay.

Oh... one more thing.

Even though I’m FAT, I’m much more SEXIER and PRETTIER than you.

Ask your pervert boyfriend.

 He definitely can’t agree more with me.

devil's cash

It was only after a long period of being blinded by greed,

Now I understand why money is being called devil’s cash.

The devil’s temptations are very sweet and enticing.

Could I, returning to the world of money games,

Turn down the devil’s enticing temptations?

mere right~

You have the right to remain silent.

Anything you say will be misquoted.

Then used against you...

Huh!!!

wise man vs me

The wise man once said;

“Differences of habit and language are nothing if our aims are identical and our hearts open.”

But, this is what I said;

“Nowadays there are no differences of habit and language. The differences lay on their aims. Each of us has our own aim which sometimes can make someone take at any cost to fulfil their aim. Everyone become greedy, gluttony and lusty of money, power, status etc... In order to achieve that, they are willing to sacrifice other person’s life, being a traitor who betrayed their own people, kills their hope and happiness. In the end, there’s chaos everywhere. Riot here and there. There is no safer place. Children can’t play freely at the playground. Ladies can’t go anywhere freely. Even home is not a safer place anymore. Because of the AIMS...”

bloody roses

You said, roses of red grow in your heart and they will never wither cause they bloom every time you see me smile, hear my voice and when you’re thinking of me. The roses still grow in your heart right now. Unfortunately, it’s not mine anymore. It’s someone else roses. It’s okay. You can just nurture it. She snatches you from me and that’s okay. Really, it’s okay with me because someday, someone else will surely yank out her roses. I believe in karma- what goes around comes around and what you give, you get back. Maybe this is my payback for not give you all my love. But, you need to know this; I live in this world not to specially dedicate my life for you.

love,hard...

In love, the hard times will surely call,

And no lover is without their flaw,

But you must have rain to see the rainbow,

And endure the thorns to have the rose...

love,leisure,money and utilitarian affair......

It is unfortunately very true that, without leisure and money, love can be no more than an orgy of the common man. Instead of being a sudden impulse full of ardour and reverie, it becomes a distastefully utilitarian affair.

JURISPRUDENCE~

"Like trying to find a black cat in a dark room while what you can see is only the eyes..."

The search for better understanding about law which I would never understand...

Ohhh...Crap...!

This is totally GREAT!!!!
MAGNIFICENT!

farewell sweetheart...

Her: I’m going to leave now.

Him: Please don’t leave.

Her: I’m going to come back soon.

Him: It’s a lie.

Her: No! Don’t you know how much I love you?

Him: Can’t you show that love to me right now?

Her: I love you.

Him: Can’t we love again???

Her: I'm leaving. Live well.

Don’t leave...

Can’t you stay by my side?

All the lies...

I don’t hear anything.

And I’ll pretend I don’t even know.

I love you...

Can’t you show me those words?

I love you...

Will you love me again?

Can’t you love me?

Please come back.

success

Success seems to be connected with action.

Successful people keep moving.

Even though they make mistakes, they don’t quit.

They learn from the mistakes and try not to repeat it.

you...

My love is gone….

Now I’ll forget you

I will forget you,

I will erase you.

I regret loving you,

How come I’m the only one hurting this much?

I regret giving you all I had.

I hate you but deep down in my heart begging you don’t leave me.

Damn it, I can’t erase you.

Your image keeps haunting me.

I’m such a loser.

My tears won’t dry.

And like a fool I keep thinking of you, all day long.

Before you’ve became my whole life, today all that I have are memories of you,

Looking at our torn picture, my tears kept on flowing.

You went far away, leaving me in such state.

I will erase everything, I will forget everything, and I will

peacefully bury you inside my heart.

I loved you just like a fool, don’t mind me baby, go and live

your life.

I don’t know where and what you are doing now,

I hope you’re living well,

I know there are so many people can make you happy,

But then, why am I that hurt?

My heart still desires you; you’re still in my heart.

My heart still loves you; you’re still in my mind.

Left alone, I’m just crying.

I will forget you,

I will erase you.

And that’s my oath.

others vs him

Each time I lose and fail, I heard them talking behind my back.

The worst, they even say it in front of my face.

With a smirk on their face, they’d say;

“Losing is nature’s way of saying you suck!”

Those words slapped my face.

I felt hurt, annoyed, irritated and furious at the same time.

But all of that disappeared once he said this;

“Never discourage anyone who continually makes progress, no matter how slow she is.”

Ahhhhhhhh..

I felt so light after hearing that.

At the same time it courage me to do better next time.